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Friday, September 30th, 2005
9:45 am
its a wonderful life
I dont think life can get any better right now for me. Well ok maybe it could but im very content with it so far. This week has been amazing. Monday night was awesome at work. reason behind that is Austin of course. I've made up my mind and i decided on him. Matt just wasnt working out I never talk to him and I never see him either. And then with Austin I see him like literally everyday and I talk to him everyday. Also I'm pretty sure I know what I want to do when I graduate. I dont care if my mom dosnt like it, it's my life and I will go to collage where I want, not where she wants. O well im not gonna let that bother me right now. im passing every class wiht an A. I'm actually happy and not doubting myself. i hope things stay like this for a long time to come.

Current Mood: amused
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
10:02 am
ive decided on austin and thats what im sticking wiht. granted hes 20 and all but i dont care. whatever. not like anything will happen anyway with him. why would a 20 year old want to date a 16 year old?
Friday, September 23rd, 2005
2:05 pm
yeah well last night i thought alot about this situation and all and i came to the coclusion of matt. but then im also starting to have feelings for jeremy again which i know is bad and all. we shall see how work goes tonight wiht austin and see if anyting happens.
Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
9:24 am
well lets see no one ever reads this so i can tel what ikm feeling right now in here. im so confused right now n this whole austin matt thing. maybe if i write it down it will all make sense. i mean yeah i like matt lot but then i also like austin alot too. i see austin more then i do matt. an i talk to austin more then matt most the time. matt is always busey wiht either school or work and its the same wiht me. we work usually the same times or similar times and all but i dont know. i honestly dont know what to do. grrrrrr
Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
7:57 am
im sitting in first period in the computer lab being bored. today is my last day of school and then its off to wisconsin on fri morning. baraboo to be exact.lol that a funny word baraboo. god im a loser.lol. yeah i dont have ne friends on here that live were i live so why am i writting in here? i honestly dont know maybe some random person will comment?? who knows? ok im done later

Current Mood: amused
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
10:06 am
haha im so from the south..lol

You Know You're a Southerner When...

You have drunk tea/water/any beverage out of a mason jar.

What do you mean it's unusual to pray at football/baseball/basketball games?

Biscuits go great with ANY meal!

You know the difference between sweet tea and tea with sugar mixed in it.

You know that Methodists are just Baptists that can read.

Forget roasted peanuts, you like your's boiled.

You know there's more than one way to have your okra.

The War between the States was about State's Rights, of course!

Wally World is what you call Wal Mart.

You've been to the World's Largest Outdoor Cocktail Party at least once.

Florida's just different.

If you're a guy, you've worn shorts with boots.

You love going to the State Fair, and the Rattlesnake Roundup, and the Chicken Pie Festival, and Mossy Creek, and Buckarama, and....... etc etc etc.

You call people of all ages sir or ma'am.

If you're a girl, you've been pet-named either sugar britches, darlin', or butter bean.

Sure you know Bubba, he lives two houses down in that nice triple wide with the above ground pool behind it.

Here's a tough decision: Sweet Potato Pie or Peach Cobbler??

Jeff Davis and Bobby Lee are national heroes!!

You haven't ever seen snow, but you sure would like to!

You say/have said any of the following, "I reckon", "Mash that button", "I about fell out", or "Hey ya'll! Watch this!"

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from the South.

Saturday, October 16th, 2004
12:56 pm
have a coral day!
god i love spongebob. its great.lol. yeah lets see being grounded blows. i wanted to hang out with maria this weekend but no grounded so i cant. i might camp out tonight in the yard.....hmm. hope so. should be fun. yesterday was really boring. no school= amber being bored out of her mind. which i totally was.then this morning took dog for a ride in the van cuz people were coming to look at the house. saw a big ass alligator doen the street. thing had to have been at LEAST 10 feet long. the other one was like 8 feet long. i live in the woods so theres lots of wild animals out here. deers,pigs,turkeys all that good stuff. seen otters too its cool!! ok gonna go find something to eat. ok bye.......

Current Mood: blah
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
3:05 pm
today was really boring. like you would not believe. i fell asleep in french. almost did in 2 and in 3. ive beenm tired all day but im not really ne more. thats good. no school tomorow!! :) yay! *burp* saw this redneck at the skatepark and found out his names brian. amber b. told me his name. o well. yeah im hungry.and im grounded for two weeks which totally blows cuz today was suppossed to be girls night with broken hearted maria. hope yah feel better there burrito.lol. o and its our secret maria but *whispers* wes likes you!!!! SHHHHHH dont tell. ok bye.............

Current Mood: amused
Monday, October 11th, 2004
3:18 pm
1. Nervous Habits? Biting my lip or picking at my belt, figitting with my hoodie
2. Are you double jointed? No
3. Can you roll your tongue? Yeah
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? No
5. Can you blow spit bubbles? i think so
6. Can you cross your eyes? Yeah
7. Tattoos? No :(
8. Any peircings? where? Yes and my ears
9. Do you make your bed daily? No

10. Which shoe goes on first? which ever
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? Yes many times lol
12. On the average, how much money do you carry? Maybe 10?
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? earings and braclets
14. Favorite piece of clothing? Jeans, hoodie

15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? Yeah. Who hasnt?
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? Cookie Dough
18. How many cereals in your cabinet? 1
19. What's your favorite beverage? Mountain Dew
20. What's your favorite restaurant? Taco Bell
21. Do you cook? Sometimes

22. How often do you brush your teeth? Once a day
23. Hair drying method? put in pony tail and leave
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? does sun in count?

25. Do you swear? Yes
26. Do you ever spit? yeah alot :/ i dont think guys like that...do they?

27. Animal? monkey
28. Food? Chinese
29. Month? october
30. Day? Saturday
31. Cartoon? Gir!!
32. Shoe Brand? chucks
33. Subject in school? French
34. Color? black,red,white,green
35. Sport? skating,fmx,bull ridding
36. TV show? The OC, crank yankers
37. Thing to do in the spring? Skate?
38. Thing to do in the summer? Go to the beach
39. Thing to do in the fall? jump in leaves up north
40. Thing to do in the winter? snowboard up north

41. The CD player? the used
42. Person you talk most on the phone with? maria, shane,megan,ryan,
43. Ever taken a cab? Yes
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? Not really lol
45. What color is your bedroom? White?
46. Do you use an alarm clock? Yeah
47. Window seat or aisle? Window

48. What's your sleeping position? on my tummy
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? Yes
50. Do you snore? I dont know
51. Do you sleepwalk? No
52. Do you talk in your sleep? Yeah alot
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yeah when im at home
54. How about with the light on? Nope
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? Radio
56. Last interesting person you met? Ryan lol

Current Mood: bored
Saturday, October 9th, 2004
5:41 pm
this is the other one lol
Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:Punk
Your Favorite Band/SongLinkin Park - My December
You Like To Read:The backs of cereal boxes
You Firmly Believe In:Nose-picking
Everyone Thinks You Are:A cheap bastard
You Were Conceived:Next to a fireplace
You Will Marry:A respectable person
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Current Mood: amused
5:39 pm
Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:Geek
Your Favorite Band/SongGarth Brooks - Thunder Rolls
You Like To Read:Romance novels
You Firmly Believe In:Love at first sight
Everyone Thinks You Are:A respectable person
You Were Conceived:In a burning building
You Will Marry:Your current boy/girlfriend
Quiz created with MemeGen!

haha that is sooo funny. im gonna try it witout capitoling the letter
Friday, October 8th, 2004
10:54 pm
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm............................... what to say what to say go read other journal.
Thursday, October 7th, 2004
3:08 pm
haha no one reads this stuopid thing so yeah
Wednesday, October 6th, 2004
3:11 pm
yay! im goin out with ryan :) im happy. im pretty sure he'll end up reading this so yeah not gonna put everything down in here.*wink* im glad he did ask me or should i say wrote it to me cuz i like him alot. im such a dork yeah thats all i have to say right now as in this very moment.

Current Mood: ecstatic
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
5:02 pm
wow long time no see..
wow been a long time since ive updated in here. hmm last guy i wrote bout was kosta....*ewwwwww*. no greeks for me.hehe. yeah on the phone wit ryan, i just hit my foot. owe(idt its spelled right) ok bye.....

Current Mood: giddy
Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
4:12 am
i fpund a song
i am lost in the see-thru
i think you lost yourself too
Throughout all of this confusion
I hope I somehow get to you
I practiced all the things I'd say
To tell you how I feel
And when I finally get my chance
It all seems so surreal
Cuz from the first time I saw you
I only thought about you
I didn't know you
I wanted to hold onto
The things you'd never say to me
Cuz you said

You can't change the way you feel
I could never do that, I could never do that
But you can't tell me this ain't real
Cuz this is real
And you would see right through that
In the end it's all I've got
So I'm gonna hold onto that
So I'm gonna hold on and on and on and on,
Now you've got me watching your eyes
Got me waiting just to see (If you ever look at me)
If it goes the way it never will
(Will it ever go, will it ever go my way?)
Your eyes are watching me
And now you've got me thinking 'bout

The first time that I met you
Standing in a crowded room
But I could only see you
And I hope my words will get through
Cuz now I can't forget you
I want to tell you
If only I could reach you
And make you feel this way
But you said...


ok this is the song that works for me. see if you can figure out how i feel

Current Mood: lonely
3:58 am
yeah ok im gonna start writting bout kosta in here cuz he dont know this and no one better tell him bout it either or they will die a very horrible and painfull death. lol. yeah i dont know what to do pple. i mean i like him and all but im not sure if i have a chance with him or not?i prolly dont but i mean i can wish right? ok im gonna find a song that explains how i feel.....cuz i have alot of mixed emotions right now bout this situation.

Current Mood: mixed emotions
Saturday, June 19th, 2004
1:27 pm
yeah i just got this journal and i think i will write in here about how im feeling and when i dont want ne one to read it cuz no one knows this cept maria thats it.
I never...
-Put an 'x' in the things that are true-

(x) I Never Have Been Drunk
(x) I Never Have Smoked Pot
( ) I Never Have Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
(x) I Never Have Kissed (made out with) A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) I Never Have Had Sex
(x) I Never Crashed A Friend's Car
(x) I Never Have Been To Japan
( ) I Never Rode In A Taxi
(x) I Never Had Anal Sex
() I Never Have Been In Love
(x) I Never Have Had Sex In Public
() I Never Have Been Dumped
(x) I Never Shoplifted
(x) I Never Have Been Fired
() I Never Been In A Fist Fight
(x) I Never Had A Threesome
(x) I Never Snuck Out Of My Parent's House
(x) I Never Have Been Tied Up
(x) I Never Have Been Caught Masturbating
() I Never Pissed On Myself
(x) I Never Had Sex With A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) I Never Been Arrested
(x) I Never Made Out With A Stranger
(x) I Never Stole Something From My Job
(x) I Never Celebrated New Years In Time Square
(x) I Never Went On A Blind Date
() I Never Lied To A Friend
(x) I Never Had A Crush On A Teacher
(x) I Never Celebrated Mardi-Gras In New Orleans
(x) I Never Been To Europe
(x) I Never Skipped School
(x) I Never Slept With A Co-Worker
() I Never Cut Myself On Purpose
(x) I Never Had Sex At The Office
(x) I Never Have Been Married
(x) I Never Have Been Divorced
(x) I Never Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week
(x) I Never Have Posed Nude
(x) I Never Got Someone Drunk Just To Have Sex With Them
(x) I Never Have Killed Anyone
(x) I Never Received Scars From My Sex Partner
(x) I Have Never Thrown Up In A Bar
(x) I Have Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire
(x) I Have Never Eaten Sushi
() I Have Never Been Snowboarding
(x) I Have Never Had Sex At A Friend's House While They Were Throwing A Party
(x) I Have Never Had Sex In A Dressing Room
(x) I Have Never Flashed Anyone
(x) I Have Never Hooked Up with a Friend's Sibling
(x) I Have Never Purchased Pornography

yeah my life is pretty boaring

Current Mood: drained
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